Saturday, January 8, 2011

I'm Back!

Wow, it's been 2 years and (almost) 1 month since I last posted on my blog. I was reading another blog and realized I'd like to be back on the blogwaggon!

I originally started this blog as a way to deal with my ever breaking heart. Mia almost didn't live through birth. She suffered a brain injury due to the lack of oxygen. She's globally delayed, hypotonic, epileptic, asthmatic, and uses a diagnosis of 'cerebral palsy' to obtain services. In 2008 I moved from Hawaii to So. CA. A move that I was excited about since my family is in So. CA. It turned out to be a much harder move than I expected. First off, checking out of Tripler Army Medical Center was VERY difficult for me. Mia had been going there at least weekly for nearly 2 years. That was her first 'home' for the first month of her life. When I checked her out of TAMC I felt as though I was leaving her there. It was odd. Then we got to CA and obtaining services for her was stressful, frustrating, overwhelming and took forever. Mia wasn't making great progress developmentally and it became too difficult for me to cheer on my other bloggin mommas whose children were making tremendous strides. I took time off of the blog and eventually tried to blog again, but just wasn't 'feelin' it.

I now decided to blog again, not only as a way to express feelings, but as a way to track events in our life. It's fun to look back and see where we've been, what we've done and most importantly the awesome progress that my little Mia has made. My heart still breaks, but as a lot of SN mamas said it gets better in time. I still break down and cry, wonder what her future will be like, but it doesn't happen very often. I am more at peace and I do know God has a plan. God has answered so many prayers for Mia and Mia has touched so many hearts.